Well I am sorry to hear that, I find that when stuff like that happens just realize you will never hear their voice again so cry and it will help so much.
While I am sorry to hear that you lost a loved one. This should've stayed a family matter. You could've told people while you returned that something personal happened.
I'm Soooo sorry for your loss. I lost my father and I know how it feels. I'm also sorry I'm late I'm new to the tpt community.